The Brighter side of Life...

Some not-so fascinating, hard truths of life that you are priviledged to experience, the moment you step out of the cocoon of school life and cross the 'seven seas' to be one with the universe at large..ie ..your initiation to the place of your dreams....of unparalelled independence....of frequent off-periods...of 'happening' places further accentuated by an equally 'happening' ..ultra cool gang....only to discover that this was not the independence that you had craved for in your wildest dreams....this was not the vision of your dream-land that you had conjured up in your mind in moments of passionate frenzy...suddenly, you realize with a jolt..you desperately want to extricate youself from the tenacious grip of reality...only that you do not have the return ticket.....so what do you do then..??some wise people have already said that the secret of happiness lies in acceptance and even if you do not subscribe to this view..acceptance does seem the most logical solution at this point of time...so even before you realize ..you have already got accustomed to the ways of the world...and then slowly and inevitably..the sweet, poignant,cherished memories of school days....days filled with sunshine, innocence and vulnerablity recedes into the innermost recesses of your mind.....at times, nostalgia overflows and you look back at them wistfully, shouting out aloud to a particularly indifferent passer-by.."those were the best days of my life"...this paticularly indifferent passer-by then bestows you a particularly pitiable look and you then fully conscious of your stupid statement..moves on with life..not caring to spare even a furtive glance back at the road already travelled......

But as i said before acceptance does at one point of time lead to happiness....

so here goes my lame effort to capture the most enjoyable moments of college in my blog..

Well i'll go a step forward by actually saying that i love JUDE now....Upasana saw my previous post and was damn pissed off with me....so i apologize now...n upasana and chandrima..i just LOVE YOU GUYZ...and i am not exactly trying to hit on you both,,hehehe..

i love it when i have to half run, half wade, through the slush en route the S9 bus stand to be greeted by an ever smiling bunch of idiots who shout out aloud in unision "You are late yet again!!"...[am not generally late but prannoy n rajarshi is always before time n rats just manages to be on time while ritu is the self confessed late lateef..she has this whole history behind her for being late right from her school days so it isn't too surprising..]...but lately the 5 of us rarely make it together in the mornings due to different timings but we do make an effort to match our timings when we return home after a hard day's work [read:2 periods of incessant core classes-bunking ED's for me- relegiously devoting some time at milan da's and ah yess..SCM when the weather is nice and v feel particularly indulgent and yess how could i forget, as kalpan n dipankar calls it a considerable amount of "jheeling" these days for the necessary socializing bit..you see we judeans have this entire reputation of being highly sociable people....so this more or less can be safely categorized under "hard day's work" bit..lolzz]..but yess i just lost the thread again [this is so like me]...

so as i said, we do make an effort to match our timings while returning home, sometimes squeezing in unplanned pleasure trips to SCM...its this 'effort' which matters and its this 'effort' again which still binds us together months after school....wether its giving missed calls to each other for no apparent reason whatsoever in the middle of the class or texting some profane languages to rats just for the sake of time pass and ahh yess stalking chin chin throughout the university, irritating cole,hitting sayan n teasing prannoy with my trademark question "tor bepare kisob sunchi jeno??"replete with the v amritaish voice of supressed laughter n attempted seriousness at the same time..lolzz...its such a reassurance to know that half the people i love and adore are just at the other side of the university and i just need to text them once [ cuz its cheaper that way..lolzz] to let them know that i am missing them n i need them by my side....yet some things definitely have changed...rats is at his "keta marofying" best these days...n ritu is attempting to set the stage on fire with her new found dancing skills..never did i imajine in my wildest dreams that i would live to see the day when she would be performing onstage...i on the other hand have become even more voluble n is proudly scaling new heights of carelessness these days....the "terrefic trio" still does exist in spirit even today but i can sadly see the equations between the three of us changing as we struggle to cope with the fact that we have "new friends" ....rats, all that i can tell you is that no matter how many new friends, me n ritu we both have...you will always remain special and no one can really take your place in our lives..the bond that we three share is special and is not so WEAK..!!!

Sub has changed a lot over the last few months as is evident from his newly created orkut account....IIT has definitely contributed a lot to his new found lingo which is going down v well with my idiotic friends..sub..theres really nothing to be so proud of learnin such objectionable slangs and hurling them at each n everyone..lolzz..n i am serious..but its amazing to know that even though shaggu n sub are separated from us "geographically"..nothing has really changed....[read: we still abuse each other and talk crap like we used to ..in fact sub is talking a hell lot of crap these days..]

yet i miss riju even though we have bonded even more strongly in the last few months...bro, there is this sudden urgency within me to share so many things with you which i have to brutally supress...i just can't wait to meet u..

though there is this still major SLS hangover enveloping my life...i can say i am enjoying lot in JUDE land these days..accentuated all the more by the presence of the two new found kindred spirits, upasana n chandrima in my life..i really do not know what would i have ever done without you two...i never thought i would actually find an extension of myself in college, but i did find you both..its amazing how well we have bonded in such a short time...i love it the way you two actually take the patience to listen to all my never-ending crap, babysit me and try and get me out of the stickiest situation possible...i love upasana's hyperactivness, her cute "popeye" voice and the way she jumps up n down when shez excited..yet there's so much more to her than what just meets the eye..shez a dynamite and i love you for your spirit and accepting me for what i am....chandrima..well shez my first friend in college and shez actually the one who changed my entire definition bout JUDE....shez a fighter and a survivor...its impressive, the way she turns the most unfavourable situation to her advantage..i love the way she silently and powerfully commands respect..unlike upasana n me she is more restrained... but again,unlike both of us she fights back when required with enviable confidence while me n upasana are left tongue-tied..i love the way she constantly monitors my actions so i do not land myself into trouble time and again which i am perfectly capable of...

i know i have said this to you both a hundred times before but i'l say this again..i really love you both and you two r shit important to me...thank you guyz for being there for me...

even though a lot has changed, while a lot still remains the same.... i know for sure that a part of myself has changed for the better while another part of me has died for ever..its the pessimistic, negative part of me that i have killed today so that i can have ample room for optimism in future...

AMrita..[its me back again!!]